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Sunday, 20 March 2011

A wedding

Dear Blog,

Every woman, will dream of a beautiful wedding, with a love one by her side..the love that will be for her for the rest of her life..i dream of the same wedding too, but will i ever have one?

Dear Blog,

My sister just got married a month ago, im happy for her, at last, theres a man that will take her to be his wife, im not saying she's a bad person, but she dates a lot, sometimes, i just dont understand it, how can someone thats so disloyal to someone else can end up having something that she always dream of? I guess thats what we call faith..and its faith that determine her to be happy..but will i ever have one?

Dear Blog,

I've always want a wedding, that is so simple, yet so beautiful, with only few people attending, maybe less than 100? Coz in my life, i dont have that many people that are close to me, infact, if i have to list down people that are close to me on a piece of paper, it will end up with a blank paper.. coz really, i dont have anyone close to me..i dont blame people, i guess its just me..but will i ever have one?

Dear Blog,

For me, i only wants to get married ONCE..to someone i really-really love, to someone that can make me happy for the rest of my life, someone that will never hurt me like other guys had, someone that knows who i am and can accept me for who i am, someone that can go through my life together, and support me and do stuff that i cant never imagine i could do without him, someone that i can laugh along with, and not afraid to hold me, not afraid to take my hand when im scared, someone, when i kiss him, he'll hold me, like he doesnt want to let me go..he'll look into my eyes and not afraid to say i love you to me, and someone that im not afraid to say the same thing too..but will i ever have one?

Dear Blog,

I once read, that good things will happen to girls who wait, patiently wait, i hope that is true..because all my life, ive never felt love, ive never felt wanted, ive never felt special, ive never felt needed..and for once, i just want it to happen..i really do..

Amin..

Wassalam..

P/S: I hope one day, i'll have a video like this..=,(

Thursday, 17 March 2011

Spill of a dar* coke!

Dear Blog,

I'd to wake up early, to send my dad to the clinic, for a checkup, it was 1030, i couldnt sleep last nite..i tried, but i couldnt, i listen to silly songs, and again, i cried..

I slept at 0500, i think, i didnt even perform my subuh pray..lately im hooked to Indonesian songs, i dont know why, i guess, coz it is slightly related to me..the lyrics..

Ok, so i drove to the clinic, and waited for a while, i was so sleepy, then drove to McD in Taman Tun Hussein Onn, bought McValue meal for Hafiy, then stupid me placed the darn coke at the back seat, where it all spilled out, all over my seat!

The point of today incident is, i texted someone i miss dearly about it, and he ignored it.. i know hes doing the right thing..TO IGNORE ME AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE..i know, but its just so painful, when someone that you want to know everything about your day, especially during gloomy days, chosen to ignore you..the feeling is so..painfull..

He'd made his choice..again, and again..AND he did not choose me..NEVER..and i, i've known that, i do, but im not strong enough to walk away..to just walk straight..im not, i hope one day i will be..

The darn coke ruined the whole day..i hate coke! I hate..i shouldnt hate..

Bila keyakinan ku datang, kasih bukan sekadar cinta,
Pengorbanan cinta yang agung, ku pertaruhkan,
Maafkan bila ku tak sempurna,
Cinta ini, tak mungkin ku cagar,
Ayat-ayat cinta, bercerita,
Cintaku padamu..

Wassalam..

Wednesday, 16 March 2011

Why Men Are Disgusting..*sometimes

Ayat-Ayat Cinta

This song is taken from the movie "Ayat Ayat Cinta", i dedicate this song, to the person who asked me to watch it, i dont really fancy the movie though, but i knw why he asked me to watch it..this song is for you babe..and i miss u..the old u..

Wassalam..