WTH?

Dear Blog,

Who cares about my look? Im not pretty, however, im so thankful to ALLAH SWT for giving me everything that i could wish for, i can breath, i can walk, i can talk, i can smile, alhamdulillah..no complain..im just thankful to you ALLAH swt on this holly Friday.. AMIN..

A new promise..

Dear Blog,

Ive made a big promise yesterday, to ALLAH SWT, the almighty, that i will not respond to the person who hurt my feelings, so badly, and so cruelly.. i just feel so low, so pathetic, so cheap, and so forgotten..

I just feel useless, and i just i am so desperately stupid and foolish, for holding on for this long..i just wish, i will keep my promise, i know i've broken my promises before, but i do not want it to happen again ya Allah swt..

Pls help me, give me the strength to move on, though the future might not be what i want, perhaps it may be what i should have..and i will try to embrace it..insyallah..Amin..

Wassalam..

Minka Kelly

Dear Blog,

This girl, is so darn hot , and super2 pretty, i dont care if im a girl, but she is so darn pretty! MasyAllah..

Wassalam..

Miss-ing you..

Dear Blog,

This aint anything, i just am missing him so much..all i could think about is him, its so unfair for me to have this feeling, i really wish, i really hope, everytime when im alone, when i pray, i will stop thinking about him, i really hope, one day Allah swt, the almighty, will take away this feeling, close my heart, really tight, for him, because i know, he doesnt deserve my love, he doesnt deserve me..

But right now, all i could think about is him..

Wassalam..

Redang

Dear Blog,

Its been a while, ive been so lazy to log in, the darn battery for the laptop is not functioning anymore, it has to use the cabel at all time, anyways, on 26th Mar'11, i went to Redang, with my family ( some of them ), and some family friends.

Honestly, the beach was incredible, masyallah, but the weather was so wild. The day that we got there, was ok, but that evening, started to pour rain until the day we went back.

The boat trip to the island was sick! I was so sea sick, i was listening to my songs at all time, on the boat, i was sweating like sick, and i just couldnt believe that i didnt throw up!

But nothing much i can say, the beach was incredible, but i didnt take many photos,i just hate to see photos of myself on the beach, i'll look stupid.

But below are some great photos..

This was the actual beach, it was right in front of our hotel, Laguna Hotel..

our hotel, Laguna Hotel..

Sad part about this trip was, it was so disgusting to see people almost wear nothing, i can understand the kaafir but when muslims dont look like muslims anymore, it was sad.. it really was, and this is one of the reason why i hate to be apart of this sin..im not a holly person, never am, however, there are things that i think, can be avoided..but yet, people chose not to..

Wassalam..

A wedding

Dear Blog,

Every woman, will dream of a beautiful wedding, with a love one by her side..the love that will be for her for the rest of her life..i dream of the same wedding too, but will i ever have one?

Dear Blog,

My sister just got married a month ago, im happy for her, at last, theres a man that will take her to be his wife, im not saying she's a bad person, but she dates a lot, sometimes, i just dont understand it, how can someone thats so disloyal to someone else can end up having something that she always dream of? I guess thats what we call faith..and its faith that determine her to be happy..but will i ever have one?

Dear Blog,

I've always want a wedding, that is so simple, yet so beautiful, with only few people attending, maybe less than 100? Coz in my life, i dont have that many people that are close to me, infact, if i have to list down people that are close to me on a piece of paper, it will end up with a blank paper.. coz really, i dont have anyone close to me..i dont blame people, i guess its just me..but will i ever have one?

Dear Blog,

For me, i only wants to get married ONCE..to someone i really-really love, to someone that can make me happy for the rest of my life, someone that will never hurt me like other guys had, someone that knows who i am and can accept me for who i am, someone that can go through my life together, and support me and do stuff that i cant never imagine i could do without him, someone that i can laugh along with, and not afraid to hold me, not afraid to take my hand when im scared, someone, when i kiss him, he'll hold me, like he doesnt want to let me go..he'll look into my eyes and not afraid to say i love you to me, and someone that im not afraid to say the same thing too..but will i ever have one?

Dear Blog,

I once read, that good things will happen to girls who wait, patiently wait, i hope that is true..because all my life, ive never felt love, ive never felt wanted, ive never felt special, ive never felt needed..and for once, i just want it to happen..i really do..

Amin..


Wassalam..


P/S: I hope one day, i'll have a video like this..=,(

Spill of a dar* coke!

Dear Blog,

I'd to wake up early, to send my dad to the clinic, for a checkup, it was 1030, i couldnt sleep last nite..i tried, but i couldnt, i listen to silly songs, and again, i cried..

I slept at 0500, i think, i didnt even perform my subuh pray..lately im hooked to Indonesian songs, i dont know why, i guess, coz it is slightly related to me..the lyrics..

Ok, so i drove to the clinic, and waited for a while, i was so sleepy, then drove to McD in Taman Tun Hussein Onn, bought McValue meal for Hafiy, then stupid me placed the darn coke at the back seat, where it all spilled out, all over my seat!

The point of today incident is, i texted someone i miss dearly about it, and he ignored it.. i know hes doing the right thing..TO IGNORE ME AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE..i know, but its just so painful, when someone that you want to know everything about your day, especially during gloomy days, chosen to ignore you..the feeling is so..painfull..

He'd made his choice..again, and again..AND he did not choose me..NEVER..and i, i've known that, i do, but im not strong enough to walk away..to just walk straight..im not, i hope one day i will be..

The darn coke ruined the whole day..i hate coke! I hate..i shouldnt hate..

Bila keyakinan ku datang, kasih bukan sekadar cinta,
Pengorbanan cinta yang agung, ku pertaruhkan,
Maafkan bila ku tak sempurna,
Cinta ini, tak mungkin ku cagar,
Ayat-ayat cinta, bercerita,
Cintaku padamu..

  Wassalam..